This too shall pass

Thanks all for the kind words but unfortunately I started to bleed last night and my ultrasound today confirmed a miscarriage. Needless to say I'm heartbroken but this loss is a little easier than my first two because I have this beautiful little miracle baby to cuddle. His laughter will heal my heart.  

What a Rollercoaster Ride!

Between last Thursday and this Monday my beta hcg results only went up one point. As I geared up for a miscarriage, a nurse from my clinic called and asked me to come in for an ultrasound on Tuesday. They knew there was a good chance of not being able to see anything because the…

Hurry Up And Wait

Right now I'm pretty much just in this holding pattern.  My HCG levels continue to go up but just barely.  It's very evident this is not a viable pregnancy and they keep saying the miscarriage will happen eventually but I want eventually to be now. With my first pregnancy I was offered a D&C when…

Rough Day

Given that my first pregnancy was ectopic and my second was a twin pregnancy where one of the twins miscarried, I have been very cautious. After my positive pregnancy test I called my doctor and asked for beta hcgs which is a quantitative pregnancy test. The My first test was Friday afternoon and was 356…

In the immortal words of Britney Spears…

Pretty much since the minute Theodore stepped into his daycare at 12 weeks, our house has been in a constant state of sickness.  After several days of taking cold medicine and waiting for AF to show up I started thinking back.  Hasn't it been awhile since I've had my period? Husband thinks no.  It wasn't…

Life May Never Be The Same

One night when I was about seven months pregnant I was driving home from work listening to some sad country song about cancer and started contemplating mortality.  By the time I got home I was bawling.  I started thinking about what if my grandpa, who means the world to me, doesn't get to meet my…